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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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 I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Cravings
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Monday, September 29, 2008
Hmmz... Was awake by an aunty knock the door at 8am carry baby jenson down, wanna sleep back phone ring. arhhh fcuk! cant get back to sleep le den went downstir brought noodles up and eat with sis den watch "Money Not Enough" again den fall asleep till around 1pluz, awake by jiejie went to bath and have our lunch den went down to see jenson den took bus to interchange NTUC with jiejie brought jenson milk den went to shing shiong buy pampers den went to alighting bus wait for mummy come buy pot for cooking jenson thing den went home change and went to mac interview but the manager went off, walk to bus stop to interchange, suddenly my phone cant restart took to starhub see whether can repair ma but den cant repair have to took to seimeii song errcriser repair den took bus home and use mummy phone first den rush down to city hall meet shixuan and chianah to Funan IT mall interview but went i reach there is too late the door is close le so wed go down interview. have dinner at KFC den went to seimeii repair my phone but so close it close shop le. Arrrhhhh sianz! Took bus 9 Home. Reach home around 9pluz.. Sunday, September 28, 2008
Hmmz.. Firstly Happy 1month Jenson Choo JiaJie! Time flew fast, Jenson is 1 month le, my aunty is gg back to malaysia! Haiiz! Yerterday cant sleep, keep turn here turn there. Finally fall asleep quite late around 1pluz. Awake up my aunty at early in the morning 7am go market with her help her carry thing, went back to sleep till around 8am awake by sis eat "mian xian" and sitting infront of the comp table using comp. Around 9am, my aunty came and help gugu cook and prepare thiis and that for at night some uncle and some relative coming over and celebrate Jenson 1month. Around 1pluz went to bath and went down stair meet shixuan, wak to interchange took bus 9 to chianah house first den took bus 31 to Tampines Century Square Kiddy Palace brought a baby clothes set for huiping baby on friday, took bus 69 back Bedok den took bus 225 home, went home took siccors and tape and slack at my house downstair with chianah, her bf and shixuan wrap the present for huiping baby, but then we dunno how to wrap the present shape, chianah bring home and ask her mother wrap, den went to meet block 554 meet a crazy girl settle something till around 5pluz she went to work den went back to my housestair chat and joke around with chainah,her bf and shixuan till 6pluz went back home and have my dinner. Im damn hungry! Around 8pm pluz all aunty and uncle went back home! Whooz,i love thiis feeling like at grandma house when all the kid eat together in one big table! Haha Saturday, September 27, 2008
        Hmm... Haiiz! I HATE HOLIDAY! Rot at home the whole afternoon. Watch tv, play comp, keep doing the same thing den suddenly receive a call from shiyun gg see karhoon sister and play with her! Around 5pluz shiyun came my house see Jenson, i went to bath den to joanne house meet her and went up to her see coco den took bus 228 to karhoon house bus stop, walk to karhoon house downstair meet her play with her sister till around 6pluz, peii shiyun eat at 511 market den walk to mac fill in job form den at mac outside slack awhile and walk back Home Sweet Home. Reach home around 8pm! Haiiz! Thursday, September 25, 2008
Hmmz.... Just came back from work! Awake by my relative call in the morning 9pluz wan come my house see Baby Jenson, after she went home went back to sleep till around 12pluz wake up bath and took bus to katong music sch help mummy work. After three day of chalet so tired that i fall asleep in the bus all the way from katong to bedok interchange, took bus 225 home alone rest and mummy went to buy thing! Wednesday, September 24, 2008
At Jinhao Chalet.. On 22-23 September.         Hmmz... I'm so excited, cant wait get to chalet. I cant wait for the chalet gathering since last year one of my friend say wanna open but in the end no money to open.Haiiz! Whooz finally the chalet gathering is up! Finally i can chat with you, long time didn't have a good chat with you since ITE sch open were busy in our own thing no time to meet up! Haiiz! I so scare that u cant caught the last train after ur work cant make it to chalet but Thank God, u get to caught the last rain and make it to chalet. I miss the three day at chalet plus together with you, can bear to say Good buaii! After pack up and Jinhao father drive us home, Me, Jan & shiyun went to 511 market have our lunch den went to void deck play poker card and chat till around 2pluz, shiyun have to go home bath meet friends den send you to bus stop and Home Sweet Home lie on the sofa keep thinking & thinking and fall asleep, keep crying and crying non-stop=(. Haiiz! I don't know how! I really miss him alot, keep staring at my hp, all the way beside me,waiting & hoping for your msgs and askin me meet for lunch It's already 5pm plus, i guess you have reach home from sch is asleep! I don't know how! I really miss him alot, keep staring at my hp, all the way beside me, waiting & hoping for his msgs! It's already 5pm plus, i guess you have reach home long ago is asleep or with ur stead! My eyes are closing, but i just can't get back to sleep. Why is life always so unfair=(! I know we are impossible for anything now!  Saturday, September 20, 2008
Hmmz... I'm sorry! Now you need money the most and yet i borrow money from you go ice-skating! Honestly speaking, i didn't tell mummy about wat u wrote in ur blog! I didn't gang up with them and against you! And honestly speaking, i didn't even know wat they talking about! I'm sorry mummy! I shouldn't scold you like that! I know is hurt but sometime i really damn angry with you! You change wat u say before and you scold ppl without thinking whether the word it hurt people or not, just shoot wat ever u wanna scold and even bad word come out from ur mouth! I know how to scold bad word and jie become like that is all because of the both of you! Haiiz! Sometime i wonder, are we your daughter?!!!Haiiz! How i hope that now im 21years old and got lots of money so that i can move out of this house, everytime heard nagging here and there, bad word come out and quarrel here and there! Haiiz! So fcuking fan! What a fcuk up family i have! Sorry! Why all my friends seen to have to happy family but i doesn't have! Haiiz! Why everything seen so horrible now! I really dun understand u all! Why must you all keep chase her out of this house! This is her house, why cant she stay at her OWN HOUSE HAPPILY! Haiiz! Friday, September 19, 2008
Hmmz... Have not been updating thiis few day! Nothing to update and No mood to update!Haiiz! My appointment for yesterday check up at SGH is 250pm! Both thing crush on thursday afternoon! I can go alone for my check up so i told mummy to go clean the music sch first, after my check up den i go down help u clean so that i can earn the 10buckz for ice-skating. Mummy dun wan i go alone so she call my relative and cancel the work and accampany me down to SGH for check up yesterday! Haiiz! Ilove swimming so much, i miss that time one big group go swimming together and so much fun! I thought that i can no need rely on the medicine anymore and can go swimming but den i hv to rely on the medicine and keep eating it and i cant go swimming! yesterday took a blood test! Hope it really nothing happen to me! God bless me. Haiiz, if she go work first after my check up den i go down help her, i can earn 10buckz so that i can go ice-skating and buy my another new thumbdrive because my thumbdrive is spoil! Haiiz! Now i really need money! Im totally broke! I got no money! Stupid check up make me cannot earn the 10buckz! Haiiz! Exam will be starting at thirth week of sch reopen! STUDY STUDY! I hate exam! Why must there be a exam! i wanna get to poly, im so stress, i so scare that i will fail and cant get to poly! Arrrhhh. God bless everyone do weel in their exam=). After sch went to interchange eat mac with jy, jan and jass and chat till around 12pluz den me and jy took mrt to enous MDIS meet ben chat and to set the time and date for the next training den took mrt to dhanbt ghaut "Action city" apply for job den took mrt back Home Sweet Home! Whooz i think gonna be fat soon, in the morning eat noodles and afternoon eat mac again, i think need go gym everyday to reduce all my fat! hahahaha! Haiiz! Holiday start today! Cant save money le! I think i goona to bored to death at home! No work and No money cant go out! Have to wait for every thursday go clean the music sch with mummy earn the 10buckz den got money go out! Whooz yeah yeah! Thiis coming monday gg stay overnight at chalet till tuesday den wednesday gg ice-skating den thursday work! Whooz my scedule is full on the first week of holiday, so that i wont to bored to death at home! Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Hmmz. Just reach home and have my dinner finish! IM NOT AS CHILDISH AS WHAT YOU THINK OKKZ! STOP SAYING I CHILDISH! After p.e lesson went outside sch buy bubble tea. kj, jan and jass went to coffee shop taobao food den went order fried fry to void deck slack! Haiiz! Today lesson start quite late so in the morning before i went to sch, my aunty fry rice give me bring to sch eat day but dunno why today i go no mood to eat! After slacking, play pocker card till forgot time go back class. lesson start at 1pm around 2pm den go back class but teacher just started not long ago still get caught up! Phew! After lesson went to raffle with jy, agence find work but den nobody come out to interview me and give me form fill up till very long still nobody come out, so sianz! Went to take mrt back city hall accampany jy look for phone den aroud 6pluz took mrt back and Home Sweet Home. Wa sianz. the mrt is so many ppl have to wait foor next train! Haiiz! To everyone! Anybody wanna tag me at my blog, please please leave ur name! Monday, September 15, 2008
Hmmz... Firstly, Happy 20th Birthday to Jie. Stay happy always. Lovess! Just reach home! Today wake up at around 8am, prepare and took 225 to inter den know forgotten to take PSP charger for jy den took 225 back home take again den took bus back to inter den took 222 to sch, lesson start at 9am, around 10am den reach was late for lesson! Around 11pluz went for lunch time, canteen chicken rice didn't open today went to sch outside wanna eat fried fry and fry noodles buy den didn't open so went to 7-eleven brought noodles to void deck with jy, kj, jan and jass eat den went back to sch for lesson again till around 1pluz dismiss den went to brought fried fry to void deck slack again, den kj and jy went to interchange took something but they lazy to come back so left me, siti, jass and jan den me, jan and jass slack and pocker card till around 4pluz den went to interchange help jiejie brought thing facial wash and condition and Home Sweet Home. Haiiz! Two thing crush together on thurs afternoon! First, i need go back SCH for check up at 2pm, cant change the time! Second, in the afternoon 2pm have to go katong work! Cant off! Haiiz! I think i have to go back SCH check up myself after that go katong help mummy work! Friday, September 12, 2008
Hmmz... Today lesson start at 8am, cant wake up. wake up at 7pluz took bus to interchange meet wan chin den she came to our sch den hv brekfast together with her in sch den went up to lab and have my test. Haiiz! I think im really stupid! A person seldom come sch and seldom listen in class can get 25/30 but me everyday go sch and listen in class only get 24/30. Im not happy with my resulth, arrrhhhh. Phew, heng u gotto take the test and make it on time and pass ur test! After sch, went down to jurong east with jy, kj, jan and jass, went to IMM have our lunch mos bugur den shop around den saw sun park got some water splash playground. went to kimage jy meet her bro gf take psp. Haiiz sianz! Who can i reply on? Whenever i got problem or trobles, who can i say too! I can only keep it in myself ! What the hell u wan?! let me tell u! IM JUST A FRIEND TO HER! Why cant a friends chat on the phone?! Im not scare of you, if u wan come whack me, come lorx! Im here waiting for you! Dun act one ah beng infront me! im not scare lah! Thursday, September 11, 2008
Hmmz... Just come home from work! Early in the morning around 7pluz, my aunty come and fetch mummy, sis and baby jenson go make passport for baby jenson den gugu wake up at 8am ask me go maket eat breakfast, i cant wake up so damn tired my eye cant open i fall aslseep again till around 9pluz awake by my house cal by my sis ask gugu take document take cab down to give them, they forgotten to take so left me alone at home use comp awhile den miss april cal me den faster prepare and rush down to sch! Haiiz Sianz! Nobody come and buy ouur thing! Sianz! Around 2pm, the sell end took bus 40 and rush down to katong help mummy clean piano classes! Haiiz Sianz! Tomorrow exam, dunno i can pass ma! I dun wan fail! Yesterday u cal me just wan ask me about today project sell at sch canteen but dunno why end up chating on the phone with u till midnight quite late around 2pluz! Wo hao bu xiang hang up the phone but you sound sleepy so i hang up the phone and let u go sleep! Thiis is the frist time that u will cal me and talk nicetly and chat on the phone till midnight. M i dreaming??? Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Hmmz... Time flew really damn fast, it doesn't wait for people! We have to chase after the time! A blink of an eye, jenson is gg to "man yue". My aunty is gg back m'sia! And exam is coming round the corner. Holiday is coming soon! Now im really broke, no money cant take my squash racket to tie the string.Haiiz! Now the only way i can is slowly save money to tie my squash racket! Anyone got anyjob intro me??!! I really need money ugently now! It've been 1week since i last update! Monday lesson start at 9am carry my CPU to sch, as Mr yarkc promissed me to install back window XP. Comp is finally repair ready but date by date im getting lazy to update and pluz nothing much to update about! Haiiz. M i really so STUPID?!! STOP saying me stupid! IM NOT STUPID! ITE ppl oso got study and is a human! STOP saying ITE ppl is useless and stupid! Haiiz! Let update about today! Nothing really much about today! Firstly, thankk jy! I know the thumbdrive that trobble u lots! Im sorry. Nothing i can say, i can only say thankk to u! Around 230pm jiahwee release us for break half an hours, we went down to canteen eat but den all the stall is close nothing to eat. So we went outside sch brought fried noodles, fired fry and bubble tea to void deck eat . By the time we eat finish gg back to class, jiahween teach finish her lesson. Wa sianz lorx! The christmas hat we haven do finish! Hope jiahwee will repeat it again! After lesson, no place to go took bus and Home Sweet Home! Quarrel with my mother and my sis! STOP SAYING ME STUPID! Haiiz! STOP nag at me, is so fcuking fan and stress! Don't push me beyone limit! Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Hmmz....Jenson is out on 30.08.08 and my sis is discharge on sun night! Whooz, im so happy. My sis is finally beack home! Yeah, my house in going to be extra nosily is some month time!. Hmmz firstly. Happy Teacher Day! Happy 17th Birthday to Alex Tan! And lastly, Happy Birthday 17th Birthday to me! Haiiz, im 17th yr old le! "you lau le yi sui" LOLX Today jan and jass brought a black forest cake, after p.e 12pm, went out to void deck cut and eat the cake. hehe. Now my shirt is smash with some crea, so damn smelling LOLX. Anyway thankk Jan, jass, jy, kj and joanne and everyone whose wish me a happy birthday=)! Hmmz, later after sch going to treat jy, kj, jan and jass eat mos bugur. hehe |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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