Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Cravings Exits Songs Archives August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 January 2010 February 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 December 2011 January 2012 June 2017 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Sunday, October 5, 2008 Hmmz.. Haiiz! Thought runing thru my mind. Whenever i think bout it, i feel like crying because disappointment and sadness is actually what i'm feeling but i wonder why i'm always look upon as a bad person cause of my anger. life is never fair ya?! i think you guys have to agree with me! communication is never right with different people's thinking, and it's always the bad one getting what they shouldn't deserve! I've a bad temper. but of cause you don't see me angry all the time, it's only when my patience really run out already or something too much happened. otherwise, i'm always pressing myself laughing and behaving like a siao char bo among my friends.. I dun wish too =(! why am i angry? because i'm disappointed. but when i'm angry, i use harsh words. i use vulgarities, and all these cover up my disappointment which what my heart is feeling. that's why.. Haiiz! Is all my faulth! I make both of u break off! I shouldn't give you her number! Nothing will happen! And i shouldn't say all out! I'll always be a bad person. nobody really understand me. i think it's pointless ba. when such things happen, they won't think or understand how you felt. or maybe think what you have done for them. i'm really speechless. but i still can't hide within myself, i really have to blog it down. feeling very much worst & i've no one to talk to. when i was blogging down and thinking about this every nitez, i cried. yes, but i kept hid my tears away. i feel that sometimes, having 1 good friend is all you ever need. really! you tell her, she tell you, problems you call her, she got problems she call you. you know she can trust you, you know you can trust her. concentrating on 1 good friend, no conflicts. & at least you know she really appreciate whatever you've done for her and you'll feel the joy whenever she buys you lil surprises, even willing to spare mins or secs just to hear you out, be your listening ear. almost everday texting each other, about anything and everything under the sun. randomness but it's a way showing our bondness! When i was home, i felt even more depress, adding on into my mind now. i don't know why but my heart sank. i all along didn't dare to think so much. I also believe and hope that time will heal me, get rid of all these shit. i think, i'll be fine. as strong as ever? I can only blog all my feelings down and this is the first time i've type such long! Hmmz... My eye are closing but i just cant get to sleep.Haiiz! It's all my faulth!
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay